She lay awake on her bed for a very long time. She dreaded waking up to an empty house and face the reality. The reality that she is all alone now. She did not have him anymore.....he is gone...forever...
All this while, her life was like a fairytale, which she shared with the love of her life. And now.......and now all gone......all taken away from her rudely, just because someone chose to have a wee bit of extra fun in driving after heavily drinking. Her life had shattered into small pieces in front of her eyes. She knew she would take a very very long time to overcome this feeling. Every time she closed her eyes, the scene would play again. The screeching and spinning of tyres was all she could remember, and then facing the fact that, she lost the one person whom she had loved almost all her life. He was everything for her. The sheer purpose of her existence. She felt confused as to why God spared her. Why she was forced to lead a life without him.
The huge house that was filled with their laughter and small fights and silly arguments have suddenly become so silent, that it scared her. Scared her to the extent that she felt, she would go insane. She regretted each and every moment spent in anger towards him. She wished to go back in time and change everything, including their fights. She knew that her family and her true friends would be there for her....always. But, the truth was, she dint want to be with them. She only wanted to be with him, and hear his voice and feel his touch on her, when she was only too aware of the reality.
She dragged herself out of the bed atlast. She had to go meet the guy responsible for her husband's death, who was in police custody. Each and every nook and corner of the house reminded her of her time spend with blissful happiness with her husband. The memories were flashing through her mind. Memories which she was not ready to let go off soon.
It was important for her to meet that guy and tell him what she was supposed to say. Until then she would feel as if a heavy load has been kept on her mind. And she knew, what she had to say was important to the guy too. She wanted to let him know that she had already "forgiven" him for what he did, inspite of what she will have to go through and cope up with, her entire life. She wanted him to let him know this, because, heart of hearts, she knew that, that's exactly what her husband would have wanted her to do............................
All this while, her life was like a fairytale, which she shared with the love of her life. And now.......and now all gone......all taken away from her rudely, just because someone chose to have a wee bit of extra fun in driving after heavily drinking. Her life had shattered into small pieces in front of her eyes. She knew she would take a very very long time to overcome this feeling. Every time she closed her eyes, the scene would play again. The screeching and spinning of tyres was all she could remember, and then facing the fact that, she lost the one person whom she had loved almost all her life. He was everything for her. The sheer purpose of her existence. She felt confused as to why God spared her. Why she was forced to lead a life without him.
The huge house that was filled with their laughter and small fights and silly arguments have suddenly become so silent, that it scared her. Scared her to the extent that she felt, she would go insane. She regretted each and every moment spent in anger towards him. She wished to go back in time and change everything, including their fights. She knew that her family and her true friends would be there for her....always. But, the truth was, she dint want to be with them. She only wanted to be with him, and hear his voice and feel his touch on her, when she was only too aware of the reality.
She dragged herself out of the bed atlast. She had to go meet the guy responsible for her husband's death, who was in police custody. Each and every nook and corner of the house reminded her of her time spend with blissful happiness with her husband. The memories were flashing through her mind. Memories which she was not ready to let go off soon.
It was important for her to meet that guy and tell him what she was supposed to say. Until then she would feel as if a heavy load has been kept on her mind. And she knew, what she had to say was important to the guy too. She wanted to let him know that she had already "forgiven" him for what he did, inspite of what she will have to go through and cope up with, her entire life. She wanted him to let him know this, because, heart of hearts, she knew that, that's exactly what her husband would have wanted her to do............................
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